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Post by 𝐿𝑜𝓉𝓊𝓈𝒲𝒶𝓋𝑒𝓈 on Aug 22, 2018 2:25:01 GMT -5
Also, welcome Princess Serenity!!!
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Post by ⭐ 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖜𝖎𝖙𝖈𝖍-𝖖𝖚𝖊𝖊𝖓 on Aug 22, 2018 9:32:11 GMT -5
welcome, Princess!
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Post by ✖ Ꮮꭼꭺꮲꮶꮖꭲ ✖ on Aug 22, 2018 9:42:08 GMT -5
I think my therapist is kind of stupid tbh. I was thinking about my session with her today and some past sessions and she keeps doing this thing where she will try to diagnose my friends and family by just knowing the Vague things i tell her about them and when I realized that I got pretty shaken up because?? Why is she doing that? What if she's wrong about me? What is she trying to gain from diagnosing people she isn't meeting with? Maybe she has misdiagnosed me too because she jumps to conclusions? Like I told her today about my friend who had me pulled into one specific situation and she was all like "oh maybe your friend has bpd too" blah blah blah and i just sat there like. Chill this is just a one time isolated incident. And she also has my mom and grandma pegged as some disorders too from other vague situations. Like please calm down you're supposed to be focusing on me stop jumping to conclusions for like. Five seconds. She's probably trying to explain their behaviors to you. Even though that can be done without diagnosing people........ I think therapist do tend to jump to conclusions, so I think voicing that with any concerns like "Instead of BPD i think i have DPD" or something and exploring that with her My last therapist diagnosed me with BPD just because I self harm, even though I was worried long before that I had a personality disorder like BPD or DPD. I dont want to freak you out, but I want to encourage you to look into things and feel free to talk through things and diagnosis with your therapist tbh.
Oh i don't doubt the bpd specifically because multiple people have told me that and when I look at the symptoms im a pretty basic textbook case of it. I know I also don't have dpd just by looking at it on the surface because even though I can get some separation anxiety away from my fp i don't "need" them 24/7. I also pretty much don't care what people think of me and i don't get super anxious over it, nor am i a submissive and indecisive person. I usually know and voice what I need pretty clearly most of the time.
Its that she's diagnosed me with cptsd, adhd, and started wanting to explore autism because I mentioned that my biodad had it and it makes me pretty uncomfortable because the more i look into those things the more it sounds just... off and wrong. Plus she keeps trying to convince me to start medications for depresson and stuff. It feels like shes overdiagnosed me just to be a pill pusher. idk.
Plus back to the diagnosing other people thing, all I can think of is her saying similar things to someone less aware than I am and then them going and diagnosing their friends like, "My therapist said you have _" and causing a bigger mess in their lives because she'd going around it the wrong way. Like she has a double doctorate in this stuff, so shes learned about it, but the application is poor. I don't want to tell anyone how to do their job or cast shade on the profession but it just... seems too fishy. And I've only had maybe 12 sessions total with her specifically that started back in may. It seems like such a rush?
Oh and another thing. She interrupts me because my speaking pattern is broken so sometimes i take unusual breaks just so i can finish thinking what i'm gonns say out loud and I've brought this up w her and she. keeps. doing. it.
I just want a whole new therapist. :/
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Post by ⭐ 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖜𝖎𝖙𝖈𝖍-𝖖𝖚𝖊𝖊𝖓 on Aug 22, 2018 10:31:29 GMT -5
welcome! I've never heard of MG. How does yours affect you on a day to day basis? Is your eyesight limited because of it?
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Post by 𝐿𝑜𝓉𝓊𝓈𝒲𝒶𝓋𝑒𝓈 on Aug 22, 2018 11:18:49 GMT -5
THROW THE WHOLE THERAPIST OUT I'm joking but yeah, that sounds annoying. I would look into getting a different therapist. Therapy is too important to just stick with a therapist who doesnt help you or makes you upset/annoyed tbh. Medicine is pretty handy but I've been on and off about whether I actually want to take medications for my mental illnesses or not. I just hate taking pills honestly.
Also, I've never heard of MG but thanks bringing it to my attention. Also welcome!
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Post by ⭐ 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖜𝖎𝖙𝖈𝖍-𝖖𝖚𝖊𝖊𝖓 on Aug 22, 2018 11:21:46 GMT -5
all I'm going to say on the therapy issue is that I've had 8 therapists in five years lol
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Post by ⭐ 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖜𝖎𝖙𝖈𝖍-𝖖𝖚𝖊𝖊𝖓 on Aug 22, 2018 11:28:22 GMT -5
why is. creating a clan. so hard.
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Post by ✨ nissabug ✨ on Aug 22, 2018 11:31:06 GMT -5
I had one therapist last year but I stopped cuz the psychiatrist appointments weren’t covered by my insurance lmao
And since I stopped going I needed a different prescription so my doctor that looks like Justin Timberlake gave me anxiety meds to take if needed,,,
But tbh therapy and meds won’t help me not pull my eyelashes at this point, I just need to get it together I guess lol
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Post by ⭐ 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖜𝖎𝖙𝖈𝖍-𝖖𝖚𝖊𝖊𝖓 on Aug 22, 2018 11:37:00 GMT -5
I'd marry your doctor, just so you know. My medications help with my chronic pain disorder as well as my bipolar, but they'll never help with my dermatillomania. TW: GRAPHIC DESCRIPTION OF DERMATILLOMANIA/SKIN PICKING It's gotten so bad that the skin around my fingernails is extremely hardened and my lips are scarred from picking them until they bleed. luv it
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Post by ✖ Ꮮꭼꭺꮲꮶꮖꭲ ✖ on Aug 22, 2018 11:43:16 GMT -5
THROW THE WHOLE THERAPIST OUT I'm joking but yeah, that sounds annoying. I would look into getting a different therapist. Therapy is too important to just stick with a therapist who doesnt help you or makes you upset/annoyed tbh. Medicine is pretty handy but I've been on and off about whether I actually want to take medications for my mental illnesses or not. I just hate taking pills honestly.
Also, I've never heard of MG but thanks bringing it to my attention. Also welcome! I think medicine is fine but only if you know it's a chemical issue and not a life issue. Cause taking meds wont just magically make the underlying problems go away you know? But that's just my thoughts. plus every med I used to take just made me feel like a drone. I wasn't depressed or happy I was just nothing, or with the case of one med it made me really violently angry and apathetic all the time. (sertraline, in case you were wondering.) I think the only med i didn't hate was seroquil but i only had that coming out of the hospital last year and they didn't see a need to refill it.
all I'm going to say on the therapy issue is that I've had 8 therapists in five years lol I used to have way more as a kid bc my mom always took me to either student counseling because it was cheap or christian counseling wich felt more like religious indocrination to "be a good christian" instead of... actually helping my mental issues. I sorta lost track of how many I had back then but so far this year since I just went to the local state mental health dept they've been super great? I have 2 therapists that specialize in different things to help me, and my other one is super great and helpful for basic talk therapy but the one i was talking about who is supposed to be helping me do dbt just sorta clashes with me i guess? Sometimes I leave there feeling worse than when I came in which isn't supposed to be how it is. I've even tried to talk to her about it before but I think it just gets brushed off so maybe next week I'll try just putting my foot down and being more direct. I think I know why I don't like her also. She's kind of one of those, "Love yourself! Give yourself a hug! Everything is ok!" people and I really need someone who can sit down with me and be like, "Look your mental illness isn't your fault but you better shape tf up, ya b?"
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Post by ✖ Ꮮꭼꭺꮲꮶꮖꭲ ✖ on Aug 22, 2018 11:50:16 GMT -5
Also this meme changed my life.
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Post by ⭐ 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖜𝖎𝖙𝖈𝖍-𝖖𝖚𝖊𝖊𝖓 on Aug 22, 2018 11:52:44 GMT -5
i love that meme so much
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Post by Borker on Aug 22, 2018 12:12:46 GMT -5
welcome! I've never heard of MG. How does yours affect you on a day to day basis? Is your eyesight limited because of it? im back! ok lemme answer these. neat im spreading awareness about MG! on a day to day basis, let's see. taking meds of course, that helps. if i forget a dose i don't notice until my eyes kinda start to burn and they're hot to the touch, and they're even weaker than usual. since i can't move my eyes much, i just move my head to compensate, and its usually not noticeable to others/i don't notice, but when i read it's pretty obvious. i can almost never look surprised since i can't widen my eyes, so a lot of times people say "You don't look surprised." lots of times when i tell people i have MG they go "Wait just try to open your eyes I wanna see how wide they go." which is really annoying and embarrassing. obviously seeing stuff and using your eyes is a big part of life so losing spoons can be pretty easy, but they recharge pretty fast which is nice. it's mostly little things on a day to day basis. you would think my eyesight would be limited, but if i use my fingers to widen my eyes things just get a little brighter and i can see a tiny bit more, so my sight isn't limited i guess. i do wear glasses though, but that's unrelated to MG. so it's just little things really, it's not debilitating.
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really poofy, sorry
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Post by Borker on Aug 22, 2018 12:14:37 GMT -5
Also, I've never heard of MG but thanks bringing it to my attention. Also welcome! (totally disregards the important part of your post) spreading awareness!! yay! MG isn't common so i don't blame you lol. and thanks for the welcome!
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Post by ✖ Ꮮꭼꭺꮲꮶꮖꭲ ✖ on Aug 22, 2018 12:16:34 GMT -5
Im not sure if this is related but my grandma had droopy eyelids and had a surgery to remove part of them so she could see again. Is that something thats a possibility for you?
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really poofy, sorry
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Post by Borker on Aug 22, 2018 12:22:40 GMT -5
Im not sure if this is related but my grandma had droopy eyelids and had a surgery to remove part of them so she could see again. Is that something thats a possibility for you? ooo good question. a while back one of the doctors told me surgery to widen my eyes was possible. not sure what it entails but it could be that? MG doesn't really effect my sight as of now, but it could in the future. at this point it would probably only affect the way i look. so yea the answer is surgery is a possibility. (not a possibility that i like, but a possibility.)
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Post by ✖ Ꮮꭼꭺꮲꮶꮖꭲ ✖ on Aug 22, 2018 12:28:10 GMT -5
If it's any consolation the only difference in my grandmas eyelids was immediaely after surgery she had stitches in them. Since it removes part of the eyelid that usually folds kind of into the socket and people dont see very often it doesn't get noticed or leave much of a scar at all. And there's still always the option of using an eyeshadow or concealer.
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Post by ⭐ 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖜𝖎𝖙𝖈𝖍-𝖖𝖚𝖊𝖊𝖓 on Aug 22, 2018 13:27:23 GMT -5
i am ALMOST done with my clan holy crap
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Post by ✨ nissabug ✨ on Aug 22, 2018 13:39:19 GMT -5
✖ Ꮮꭼꭺꮲꮶꮖꭲ ✖ man when I took sertraline, the meds the psychiatrist gave me, they made me even more emotional?? Like I’d cry over the smallest things when I didn’t do that before lol my mom noticed it and suggested I tried a different one and ⭐ 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖜𝖎𝖙𝖈𝖍-𝖖𝖚𝖊𝖊𝖓 I was really considering it dude, I told my mom and she said she was thinking the same thing lmao my thumbs have welts from pulling eyelashes, it’s never bled somehow
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Post by ⭐ 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖜𝖎𝖙𝖈𝖍-𝖖𝖚𝖊𝖊𝖓 on Aug 22, 2018 14:06:19 GMT -5
can I get y'alls opinion on a plot for a clan
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Post by 𝐿𝑜𝓉𝓊𝓈𝒲𝒶𝓋𝑒𝓈 on Aug 22, 2018 14:19:41 GMT -5
My mental illnesses are both genetic and caused by underlying factors and trauma so I probably need medication but, I just hate pills. My GF's stepmom suggest I ask for liquid versions of the medications and honestly I might once I start going to a psychiatrist again. I don't have anything for my chronic illnesses because I dont have the money to constantly be seeing specialist atm lmao. I pretty much ration out all the medication I get from ER visits.
Also yeah ⭐ 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖜𝖎𝖙𝖈𝖍-𝖖𝖚𝖊𝖊𝖓
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Post by ⭐ 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖜𝖎𝖙𝖈𝖍-𝖖𝖚𝖊𝖊𝖓 on Aug 22, 2018 14:20:49 GMT -5
Cat A is given a dream from StarClan one night that prophecies that one of his male kits will kill him later on in his life. This leads him to feed Cat B, his only male kit, death berries. A little while after the death of Cat B, Cat A and Cat C cease being mates. He now has a crush on Grousestar, but the feelings are not reciprocated and the main reason he likes her is because he wants power and pull over the clan. After a few too many times of being rejected by Grousestar, Cat A goes more mad than he already was and attempts to kill her(pulling a Tigerstar, as I like to say). However, Cat D and Cat E, his kits from Cat C's first litter, gang up and try to help Grousestar. In the process, Cat D kills her father - or so it is thought. The fighting all happened in Grousestar's den, and after they think that Cat A is dead, they leave the den. Cat A then sneaks out of camp and heads to live in the Unforgiving Peaks and later comes back to attack the camp with the group of cats that lives in the mountains. He successfully infiltrates attacks the camp and forces Grousestar to accept him back into the clan. However, he had another son with a she-cat, Cat F, that was from the tribe in the mountains. Cat A was fine with this, as he believes that the kit that was supposed to kill him has already been killed. This is not so. His new son, Cat G, joins ValleyClan with him and, after seeing how horrible of a cat he is, attacks his father and kills him.
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Post by Borker on Aug 22, 2018 16:01:39 GMT -5
Cat A is given a dream from StarClan one night that prophecies that one of his male kits will kill him later on in his life. This leads him to feed Cat B, his only male kit, death berries. A little while after the death of Cat B, Cat A and Cat C cease being mates. He now has a crush on Grousestar, but the feelings are not reciprocated and the main reason he likes her is because he wants power and pull over the clan. After a few too many times of being rejected by Grousestar, Cat A goes more mad than he already was and attempts to kill her(pulling a Tigerstar, as I like to say). However, Cat D and Cat E, his kits from Cat C's first litter, gang up and try to help Grousestar. In the process, Cat D kills her father - or so it is thought. The fighting all happened in Grousestar's den, and after they think that Cat A is dead, they leave the den. Cat A then sneaks out of camp and heads to live in the Unforgiving Peaks and later comes back to attack the camp with the group of cats that lives in the mountains. He successfully infiltrates attacks the camp and forces Grousestar to accept him back into the clan. However, he had another son with a she-cat, Cat F, that was from the tribe in the mountains. Cat A was fine with this, as he believes that the kit that was supposed to kill him has already been killed. This is not so. His new son, Cat G, joins ValleyClan with him and, after seeing how horrible of a cat he is, attacks his father and kills him. Wow that has a lot of potential, I think it sounds great.
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Post by ⭐ 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖜𝖎𝖙𝖈𝖍-𝖖𝖚𝖊𝖊𝖓 on Aug 22, 2018 17:29:35 GMT -5
welcome Thunderheart57! Borker thank you! I was worrying that it was too much or not enough.
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Post by ⭐ 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖜𝖎𝖙𝖈𝖍-𝖖𝖚𝖊𝖊𝖓 on Aug 22, 2018 18:39:33 GMT -5
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Post by froglet on Aug 22, 2018 19:02:22 GMT -5
ugh the Depression^tm is flaring up again and getting out of bed is an effort but I’m about to start my fall schedule which has like...literally no free time whatsoever, working every single day of the week, sometimes multiple jobs a day, along with a heavy course load
I really should try therapy again but the few times i went they were godawful. basically just brushed me off because i’m “functional” (at great cost to my mental health some days lol) when I said i was scared for my life..2 years ago?when I first started at my school, made me fill out some form for saying that, and i was on my merry way. never followed up or anything.
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Post by Sour Candy on Aug 22, 2018 19:22:47 GMT -5
Agh I'm trying to finish the rest of my credit retrieval work cause I only have till the 28th to finish but it's so hard for me to focus and each time I try to just sit down and do the work my ADHD pretty much sets my brain on fire and I either get a headache, really frustrated, or both >~< I'm practically at my wits end here
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Post by Arrow↠Deirdre on Aug 22, 2018 20:50:16 GMT -5
@zelko D: *offers comfort cookie* That sounds like a lot. Is there any way you can lighten your course load? Also, sounds like you need a new therapist
@sour Welp. I find that listening to an audiobook or watching some reality tv (not the type of shows where if you blink you miss something. The Discovery has some good ones that aren't just sap) help me to focus when my mind is racing.
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