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Post by Armageddidn't on Aug 13, 2018 17:09:46 GMT -5
Yep
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Post by ⭐ 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖜𝖎𝖙𝖈𝖍-𝖖𝖚𝖊𝖊𝖓 on Aug 13, 2018 17:11:19 GMT -5
nice! I just graduated
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Post by Armageddidn't on Aug 13, 2018 17:13:03 GMT -5
Lol
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Post by 𝐿𝑜𝓉𝓊𝓈𝒲𝒶𝓋𝑒𝓈 on Aug 13, 2018 18:36:21 GMT -5
God im so glad to be done with highschool. Are you feeling any better, Macbeth?
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Post by Sour Candy on Aug 13, 2018 19:31:56 GMT -5
I'm gonna be a Senior when school starts back up
I doubt I'm gonna graduate on time cause I spent the first 2 and a half years messing around ha ha kill me please
Also SUGFWAUHGWAO I LITERALLY SLEPT ALL DAY IT'S 5PM NOW HOW DID I LET THIS HAPPEN
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Post by ⭐ 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖜𝖎𝖙𝖈𝖍-𝖖𝖚𝖊𝖊𝖓 on Aug 13, 2018 19:54:15 GMT -5
I actually graduated a year early ^.^ I only had three credits left to finish so I did them in the beginning of the summer and graduated July 26
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Post by froglet on Aug 13, 2018 20:04:39 GMT -5
heh i was barely in school for senior year of hs I skipped 18 days of class (lmao) but my grades were so good back then that they didn’t pursue it to blemish my record for college ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
also I only had 1-2 classes a day that ended at 11am all year and spent the other half of the day in a cancer research internship
good times
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Post by Sour Candy on Aug 13, 2018 23:09:58 GMT -5
Blegh I'm feeling super low tonight .~.
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Post by 𝐿𝑜𝓉𝓊𝓈𝒲𝒶𝓋𝑒𝓈 on Aug 14, 2018 1:45:33 GMT -5
My depression and cptsd [please do not use inappropriate language or bypass censors, thanks - staff edit] me up so bad freshman year and through all highschool. Senior year i had to do internet classes so I can earn the credits I needed to graduate before the last day of school. I actually did really well and earned the second highest amount of credits that year lol. I like online school way more than regular school.
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Post by Sour Candy on Aug 14, 2018 18:59:24 GMT -5
I've been feeling super down lately cause meanwhile while everybody I know is doing well school and career wise I'm just here with a pretty low chance of graduating :/
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Post by ✖ Ꮮꭼꭺꮲꮶꮖꭲ ✖ on Aug 14, 2018 19:22:42 GMT -5
Alright, After a bit of debating with myself I guess I'll join.
I have diagnosed BPD (borderline), ADHD, C-PTSD, and depression, as well as scoliosis and some form of undiagnosed joint pains in my knees and wrists. Sometimes I will also get bouts of shakes ever since I was about 12 and they nver figured out what it was but i take a beta blocker for it when that happens and it can go away within the hour afterwards or until I exhaust myself. I'm so low on spoons I start using sporks, forks, knives, chop sticks, and my bare hands instead. I can't afford to just stop going most of the time, but it is what it is.
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Post by ⭐ 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖜𝖎𝖙𝖈𝖍-𝖖𝖚𝖊𝖊𝖓 on Aug 14, 2018 19:52:30 GMT -5
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Post by ⭐ 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖜𝖎𝖙𝖈𝖍-𝖖𝖚𝖊𝖊𝖓 on Aug 14, 2018 19:53:40 GMT -5
So, I just started a CaringBridge journal. CaringBridge is a blogsite used to document people's journeys with chronic illnesses. Mine is documenting my interstitial cystitis. If you'd like to check it out, here's my first entry.
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Post by ⭐ 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖜𝖎𝖙𝖈𝖍-𝖖𝖚𝖊𝖊𝖓 on Aug 14, 2018 20:41:31 GMT -5
having an incredibly tough time coping with the fact that I'll have IC for the rest of my life
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Post by 𝐿𝑜𝓉𝓊𝓈𝒲𝒶𝓋𝑒𝓈 on Aug 15, 2018 1:24:43 GMT -5
Oof I feel that. I had a terrifying moment in the car with my girlfriend when both of my arms started feeling like someone was playing the violin on my bones. I was like "Wow, my pain has gotten worse and spread since I was 11. What is it going to be like when im 30?" Like, as a fellow disabled person I have no idea what to say. I just ride the terror and depression out while playing games and drawing until I feel better. I think what we have to do is look forward to the good days, seconds, minutes, hours, that we have even if we are disabled, and getting treatment. I hope that makes sense.
"I was grieving for the regular life I was slowly losing" Uhg,,, the feels. Your journal was amazing thank you for sharing.
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Post by ⭐ 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖜𝖎𝖙𝖈𝖍-𝖖𝖚𝖊𝖊𝖓 on Aug 15, 2018 9:58:39 GMT -5
I started watching a show last night on Netflix called Afflicted which follows the story of 12 people with odd conditions that have no treatment and everything they were saying was just really hitting home for me. It was a hard night.
Thank you for reading.
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Post by Armageddidn't on Aug 15, 2018 10:00:34 GMT -5
I'm just doodling while I wait for my grandma to take me to school. Nothing really interesting ever happens in my life.
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Post by Sour Candy on Aug 15, 2018 10:00:43 GMT -5
morning
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Post by ⭐ 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖜𝖎𝖙𝖈𝖍-𝖖𝖚𝖊𝖊𝖓 on Aug 15, 2018 10:03:12 GMT -5
good morning
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Post by Sour Candy on Aug 15, 2018 10:04:33 GMT -5
feeling super low today...I have to record some videos for my channel anyway so I'm hoping doing that will get me back on my feet somehow
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Post by ✖ Ꮮꭼꭺꮲꮶꮖꭲ ✖ on Aug 15, 2018 11:11:33 GMT -5
So, I just started a CaringBridge journal. CaringBridge is a blogsite used to document people's journeys with chronic illnesses. Mine is documenting my interstitial cystitis. If you'd like to check it out, here's my first entry. I finally had a chance to read all of that and googled ic myself and wow. I cant believe the doctors were so incompetent they couldn't even use google to blindly see what the hell it was the whole time. Like from the symtoms and frequency and ruling out uti, it almost couldnt BE anything else. jesus christ.
I admit, i giggled at the blue part at the end though. Idk why but the thought of colorful pee is amusing.
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Post by ✖ Ꮮꭼꭺꮲꮶꮖꭲ ✖ on Aug 15, 2018 11:24:40 GMT -5
Oh I just noticed I didn't say anything for Nicknames/triggers Eddy, Chester, Leap, or Rescue is fine as well as whatever my username happens to be or a derivitive thereof. I get pretty triggered with the visual of self harm or gore but not with text mentions. Like I have to actually see it to get panicked unless it's someone close to me who I know hurt themself. I also get triggered by my own dissociation/loss of control but it, again, doesn't affect me online just talking about it but only when i see or am having it happen to me irl. I also have a weird trigger about being around otherkin/mentions of kin ever. I just can't do it. It brings me back to a very bad place in my life. (I can explain this weird trigger even further if necessary over pm but. Rather not.)
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Post by Sour Candy on Aug 15, 2018 16:15:51 GMT -5
Ay I managed to pick myself back up and I even got a few videos done and scheduled Also remind me to check out your journal at some point, Alex
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Post by Sour Candy on Aug 15, 2018 21:16:30 GMT -5
Yikes anxiety is not treating me well right now at least I'm not feeling so depressed anymore but it's not exactly the best alternative >.>
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Post by ✖ Ꮮꭼꭺꮲꮶꮖꭲ ✖ on Aug 15, 2018 21:47:59 GMT -5
I seriously think im starting to have some kind of auditory problem. But not like, normal? I can hear everything just fine still but when it comes to talking or voices I can no longer understand a lot of what people are saying if theres other background noise or people talking. I hear them just fine, i just cant process words? Its so damn frustrating to have to ask people two or three times to repeat themselves for me to be able to finally pick up on it.
Reason for this vent: trying to watch a movie w/o subtitles and having to stop and not watch it at all because i cant handle rewatching the same scene multiple times to figure out whats going on. There isnt even an option for subs. So. :/
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Post by ✨ nissabug ✨ on Aug 16, 2018 0:10:09 GMT -5
Hey nyall!!
My name’s nissabug, you can call me nissa, it’s even my irl nickname lol, I have diagnosed but medicated anxiety and trichotillamania with my eyelashes,,,,, it was diagnosed this year but i’ve done it for over 10 years lmao, and I have mild sensory processing disorder!! my therapist never mentioned the spoon theory so that’s interesting
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Post by Sour Candy on Aug 16, 2018 1:34:46 GMT -5
Hiya Nissa!
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Post by 𝐿𝑜𝓉𝓊𝓈𝒲𝒶𝓋𝑒𝓈 on Aug 16, 2018 4:34:22 GMT -5
I seriously think im starting to have some kind of auditory problem. But not like, normal? I can hear everything just fine still but when it comes to talking or voices I can no longer understand a lot of what people are saying if theres other background noise or people talking. I hear them just fine, i just cant process words? Its so damn frustrating to have to ask people two or three times to repeat themselves for me to be able to finally pick up on it. Reason for this vent: trying to watch a movie w/o subtitles and having to stop and not watch it at all because i cant handle rewatching the same scene multiple times to figure out whats going on. There isnt even an option for subs. So. :/ I have this issue, Auditory processing disorder lol. I have to watched everything with subtitles and if im talking to someone its a lot like this
"Hey can you go get me some bread?" "What?" "Can you g-" "Oh, yeah, gimme a sec"
Or I just literally cant understand anything so i just nod.
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Post by ⭐ 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖜𝖎𝖙𝖈𝖍-𝖖𝖚𝖊𝖊𝖓 on Aug 16, 2018 11:28:28 GMT -5
Hey nyall!! My name’s nissabug, you can call me nissa, it’s even my irl nickname lol, I have diagnosed but medicated anxiety and trichotillamania with my eyelashes,,,,, it was diagnosed this year but i’ve done it for over 10 years lmao, and I have mild sensory processing disorder!! my therapist never mentioned the spoon theory so that’s interesting welcome! i have dermatillomania heyyy unfortunately, most licensed professionals don't know about the spoon theory
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jacob
Pronouns: he/him/his only
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Post by jacob on Aug 16, 2018 14:21:03 GMT -5
idk if i'll be a member or just someone who pops in and out occasionally, but i might as well introduce myself if i pop in and out sometimes so at least people know who i am.
but i'm jaccob and i'm "new" to the forums. i hate the phrase "spoonie" so while i get the sentiment and understand the spoon theory n stuff, please do not personally call me a "spoonie." i have trigeminal neuralgia, tmj, and restless leg syndrome (all professionally diagnosed).
as for triggers, mentions and references to self-harm and suicide, particularly if related to hanging, are the big ones.
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