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Post by Fire the Watcher of the vale on Aug 22, 2021 22:34:39 GMT -5
prove it! jk.
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Post by Turin not Torino on Aug 23, 2021 0:28:32 GMT -5
...You work in a hotel right? Yes, I work at the front desk in the overnight hours.
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Post by Fire the Watcher of the vale on Aug 23, 2021 0:31:48 GMT -5
yo anyone else watch Impractical Jokers?
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Post by Turin not Torino on Aug 23, 2021 0:34:26 GMT -5
I've caught pieces of it here and there when the tv at work is left on that channel, but I don't find it funny at all.
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Post by Fire the Watcher of the vale on Aug 23, 2021 0:42:15 GMT -5
dang. It reminds me of my football team and all the stupid crap we'd get up to.
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Post by Turin not Torino on Aug 23, 2021 0:51:20 GMT -5
Recently the show Outer Banks reminded me of my high school shenanigans. There was this one scene where they were trying to decide whether to try to drive through this flooded road and one of them said, "come on, you know in the end you're going to do it anyway" and the guy was like "you're right" and drove through it. Only difference was they were doing it with a VW bus, and I used to do it in one of these:
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Post by Fire the Watcher of the vale on Aug 23, 2021 1:06:47 GMT -5
Fun. I actually knew a guy in highschool who had a car that looked similar to that but the back had a little bit of a more of a horizontal back. Dude tried to hop on the back and slipped and sliced his leg on the exhaust pipe. Ended up calling an ambulance in the middle of the highschool parking lot.
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Post by Leapkit on Aug 23, 2021 8:11:25 GMT -5
Ok maybe I don't still exist, I'll just disappear again.
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Post by mintedstar/fur🦇 on Aug 23, 2021 23:45:14 GMT -5
The great and powerful enigma known as Notkin.
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Heterosexual
Epic Grandmaster of Headcanons
ˈʔɛɱb̪ɻ̩f̞ʊt̠̚
Message me your headcanons pls
Pronouns: He/him/his (but they's good too)
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Post by ˈʔɛɱb̪ɻ̩f̞ʊt̠̚ on Aug 24, 2021 14:26:49 GMT -5
Hello...
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Post by Turin not Torino on Aug 25, 2021 6:55:06 GMT -5
Fun. I actually knew a guy in highschool who had a car that looked similar to that but the back had a little bit of a more of a horizontal back. Dude tried to hop on the back and slipped and sliced his leg on the exhaust pipe. Ended up calling an ambulance in the middle of the highschool parking lot. I put that poor car through a lot, only for it to meet it's demise when I came around a blind corner to backed up traffic, and hit the trailer hitch of the car in front of me going 15mph. Not a scratch on the car I hit - totaled my car. I then proceeded to hitchhike from the wreck to my destination, but that's a whole different story.
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Post by Turin not Torino on Aug 25, 2021 6:56:34 GMT -5
Ok maybe I don't still exist, I'll just disappear again. Quit disappearing, we miss you around here.
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Post by Brindlebriar on Aug 25, 2021 12:27:38 GMT -5
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Post by Leapkit on Aug 26, 2021 8:26:07 GMT -5
I'm just very stressed and distractible. Most of my attention has gone into gaming and creative endeavors by myself.
Also found out I can't trust certain people on the forums to not put me in even more danger because they know where I live. Which is my own fault.
I really don't want to leave but I don't feel welcome either.
On top of that. Going to the neurologist to find out I got worse and have occipital neuralgia caused by all the chiari/tension sucks. But it might go away. It also might not.
More confusing identity thoughts and bad mental health days in general. Someone suggested I get tested for DID/OSDD but reading into it what im experiencing could be that or an overlap with BPD in general according to some sources. I joined a discord that has a few people with it though and they've been kind and answered other questions. To some extent it definitely does feel like something else and in others I feel like its always been this way. I just wish my brain and my body wasn't so gd complicated.
I just want to be a normal functioning human. I don't want to have emotional trauma and brain damage. I'm tired.
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Post by Turin not Torino on Aug 26, 2021 23:55:14 GMT -5
Why would anyone on here intentionally put you in danger? I know where you live and I would never dream of doing such a thing.
I'm sorry your health is getting worse. Are there any treatments that could lessen the pain?
I'm glad you found helpful people to talk to about possibly having DID/OSDD, but I'm sorry it potentially means stacking yet another diagnosis on you.
I wish I could give your mind the peace it so deserves.
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Post by mintedstar/fur🦇 on Aug 27, 2021 5:20:45 GMT -5
I wish I could put in more than Turin did, but I want to second all of it.
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Post by Leapkit on Aug 27, 2021 8:21:44 GMT -5
My neurologist upped my dosage of the med I was already taking a little and said to just try to take it more regularly instead of as-needed for my usual migraines. Its... kind of worked? I was feeling twangs of pain and dizziness just from standing or walking a little and my vision would go blurry even with glasses on and no amount of squinting helped. The pain has stopped but things still get blurry when standing and I know its no longer my glasses because I just got new ones shortly after my birthday.
As for my mental health I actually remembered something I had totally forgotten about until one of my friends reminded me and then showed me screenshots of when he was talking to me but I was claiming to be someone else and my ex was able to back up that story with the way I apparently acted for a few days. I don't remember it or know if I was faking it or not. And then the whole Eddy thing. Which I half remember and I know I wasn't faking. It was scary. And that I sometimes have head conversations with different parts of self that have their own stuff going on, bodies, genders, voices, I just always reasoned that was a normal thing but apparently its not. However other than those two instances or... one of them is more of a spiritual shift thing on purpose, so I can't entirely count it, I can't recall ever switching people. But is that enough for it to count or not. Idk. I seem to meet a lot of the criteria but at the same time BPD already has identity and lack of self and dissociation issues. Its just a very complex disorder already and its got so many possible comorbidities or reasons. In fact one of the did/osdd/bpd discourses in the community seems to be over whether or not someone with bpd can have a system. People get seriously angry about that apparently and vehemently gatekeep the issue and say bpd cant have systems unless its comorbid and say bpd systems arent real systems others say its possible.
One of the other reasons it's a possibility is the different aspects of self align with what other people with DID/OSDD say are their alters they may switch between. There's a child self, a more dark impulsive, logic and reasoning, or others that fit a trope or need for the body. Mostly head conversations just go as if it's a meeting about how to proceed but I am the only one to carry out the actions. And that's only when I sit there and think about talking. Most of the time I don't even think in words, just concepts, so their "voices" come in as more of an emotion and a suggestion. Yet they are definitely distinct energies.
God I am terrible at explaining this. And I am painfully aware it makes me sound like a lunatic and I'll probably get made fun of because people on the internet always think everyone with mental health disorders is faking it for attention and I just so happen to be actually diagnosed and possibly have the ones that tiktok loves to fake the most so some people - even mental health professionals - don't think its real. Or in the case of BPD all you see is articles and articles about how terrible we are to treat. That we are bad patients and bad people. Asking questions like if we are psychopaths or even capable of love. Having doctors and therapists mood entirely change when I tell them my diagnosis and sometimes not even try or automatically think I am faking it, or calling me a liar even in the middle of being in the ER for having a physical and unrelated emergency.
It's all getting to me.
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Post by Turin not Torino on Aug 30, 2021 13:25:53 GMT -5
I finally did it. It took me 9 months, but I have finished rereading the entire Warriors series chronologically. I'm going to take this week off of reading completely, then next week I'll read Leopardstar's Honor, then I can finally read something NON Warriors. Also, I finally was able to find the blue carnival depression glass knobs I wanted for my bookshelves, and I think they look really nice:
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Non-binary
#F4B548
Name Colour
Dark Sun
Sage of the Stars
I'm devious, I'm devilish, I'm ever so deliciously evil
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Post by Dark Sun on Aug 30, 2021 18:22:04 GMT -5
I finally did it. It took me 9 months, but I have finished rereading the entire Warriors series chronologically. I'm going to take this week off of reading completely, then next week I'll read Leopardstar's Honor, then I can finally read something NON Warriors. Also, I finally was able to find the blue carnival depression glass knobs I wanted for my bookshelves, and I think they look really nice: This is my dream right here. I'm a master at procrastinating, so seeing posts like this always increases my level of motivation to keep moving forward. Congratulations by the way!
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Post by Shadowflight on Aug 30, 2021 18:41:28 GMT -5
I finally did it. It took me 9 months, but I have finished rereading the entire Warriors series chronologically. I'm going to take this week off of reading completely, then next week I'll read Leopardstar's Honor, then I can finally read something NON Warriors. Also, I finally was able to find the blue carnival depression glass knobs I wanted for my bookshelves, and I think they look really nice: what language are those books in?
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Post by Shadowflight on Aug 30, 2021 18:43:19 GMT -5
Recently the show Outer Banks reminded me of my high school shenanigans. There was this one scene where they were trying to decide whether to try to drive through this flooded road and one of them said, "come on, you know in the end you're going to do it anyway" and the guy was like "you're right" and drove through it. Only difference was they were doing it with a VW bus, and I used to do it in one of these: you watch outerbanks? That’s my fav show!
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Post by Turin not Torino on Aug 31, 2021 4:47:08 GMT -5
Shadowflight the ones in the picture are in Traditional Chinese (Taiwan). I do watch Outer Banks, I think it has a little bit of extra meaning to me as someone who grew up only an hour away from the actual Outer Banks (still a waterfront town though). Even though the show is filmed in SC, it's based on a place called Roanoke Island (which is really Dare County, in contrast to the fictional Kildare County on the show), where Manteo represents the Kooks, and Wanchese represents the Pogues.
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Post by Shadowflight on Aug 31, 2021 8:23:35 GMT -5
That’s nice! And I never knew that about outer banks!
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Post by Turin not Torino on Sept 1, 2021 3:31:49 GMT -5
Laser eyes activated!
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Post by Turin not Torino on Sept 5, 2021 0:39:22 GMT -5
Pretzel's is on life support, please don't let it die!
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Post by mintedstar/fur🦇 on Sept 5, 2021 6:05:06 GMT -5
//drifts in// Heeeeeello.
So come to find out some of the things I've been experience mental health wise are symptoms of depression. ~yaaaaaaaaaaay
But does explain some things. Don't think I have depression, but I think I have a couple of the symptoms, so there's that.
Also unrelated, but played a cool game called the Moosemen.
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Post by Leapkit on Sept 5, 2021 9:54:04 GMT -5
//drifts in// Heeeeeello. So come to find out some of the things I've been experience mental health wise are symptoms of depression. ~yaaaaaaaaaaay But does explain some things. Don't think I have depression, but I think I have a couple of the symptoms, so there's that. Also unrelated, but played a cool game called the Moosemen. I prescribe you 50ccs of cat tummy right to the face daily.
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Post by mintedstar/fur🦇 on Sept 5, 2021 17:51:25 GMT -5
//drifts in// Heeeeeello. So come to find out some of the things I've been experience mental health wise are symptoms of depression. ~yaaaaaaaaaaay But does explain some things. Don't think I have depression, but I think I have a couple of the symptoms, so there's that. Also unrelated, but played a cool game called the Moosemen. I prescribe you 50ccs of cat tummy right to the face daily. This. I want this so much. I would sell many of my worldly possessions to be able to have a cat.
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Post by Leapkit on Sept 5, 2021 20:52:23 GMT -5
I prescribe you 50ccs of cat tummy right to the face daily. This. I want this so much. I would sell many of my worldly possessions to be able to have a cat. You can borrow fletchers. Its soft.
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Post by mintedstar/fur🦇 on Sept 5, 2021 21:18:31 GMT -5
This. I want this so much. I would sell many of my worldly possessions to be able to have a cat. You can borrow fletchers. Its soft. Yes please!
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