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Post by ✖ Ꮮꭼꭺꮲꮶꮖꭲ ✖ on Oct 9, 2019 16:15:59 GMT -5
I suppose the heart of it wasn't a panic attack about the candies so much as that I don't have time, I can never meet goals I set for myself, and I feel worthless
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#a8d1ff
The Ancient One
Name Colour
pumpkin pie
what if i fall? but my dear, what if you fly?
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Post by pumpkin pie on Oct 9, 2019 16:21:19 GMT -5
i totally understand that...
i feel the same way :/
with work, i never have time to do anything and i have all these things i need to do, simple things...but i just cant bring myself to do them and it does hurt bc...its not like its something overly hard....just...you cant always get yourself to do these things...or find the time when you could have the time but any time you do have you just.....cant...
i mean. for me. its, i have my book i need to write, i have to train for 2 races and actually run, go out and bike, work on my recipes, do stuff for my business, cashing checks, paying bills...simple things that if i just set a little time each day for......i could do....but yet...i don't know
i feel worthless because i know i could be so much more if i actually did the things i was supposed to but......................its hard to just....'do anything' a lot of times outside of what we are 'forced' to do
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#a8d1ff
The Ancient One
Name Colour
pumpkin pie
what if i fall? but my dear, what if you fly?
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Post by pumpkin pie on Oct 9, 2019 16:24:00 GMT -5
just finding time to do things that make you happy...sometimes its just easier to sit there and stare at the wall and get lost in your mind and not even realize it and then have a mental break down bc I'm thinking bout all these things i should be doing that are so simple but cant bring myself to do
my manager thinks i have no life and he asked what i was doing later and he was like you just gonna stare at the wall? and i was like honestly, probably.
idk. i get it, i really do. but you aren't worthless and you aren't useless.
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Post by ✖ Ꮮꭼꭺꮲꮶꮖꭲ ✖ on Oct 9, 2019 16:24:19 GMT -5
It is Real Executive Dysfunction hours.
I still need to do days 5-9 of my inktober now and the longer i wait the more piles on the less i want to do it the more piles on and... yeah.
Don't even get me started on my book. Actually please do get me started on my book because i've been planning since i was 14 and have nothing to show for it.
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Post by Protractor on Oct 9, 2019 16:24:50 GMT -5
I wasn't present for last year's hunt.I think I joined back like a month after it was over and I was like akshdjwn
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Post by ✖ Ꮮꭼꭺꮲꮶꮖꭲ ✖ on Oct 9, 2019 16:25:34 GMT -5
I wish i had the means and ability to do the things I actually want to do but i'm just in extreme bodily pain 24-mf-7 and play animal jam and the elder scrolls 4.
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#a8d1ff
The Ancient One
Name Colour
pumpkin pie
what if i fall? but my dear, what if you fly?
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Post by pumpkin pie on Oct 9, 2019 16:27:58 GMT -5
omg but wait lol
I've been writing my book since freshman yr of high school....lol I'm like wait if i actually sat down and did this, it could be done...so much potential but....
my sis is doing inktober! she started on day 3 and did a couple the past few days to catch up but she got caught up. seems like a lot though. i say just one at a time. its just for fun, ya know?
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#a8d1ff
The Ancient One
Name Colour
pumpkin pie
what if i fall? but my dear, what if you fly?
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Post by pumpkin pie on Oct 9, 2019 16:28:35 GMT -5
why are you in pain? thats not good....
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#a8d1ff
The Ancient One
Name Colour
pumpkin pie
what if i fall? but my dear, what if you fly?
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Post by pumpkin pie on Oct 9, 2019 16:28:58 GMT -5
I wasn't present for last year's hunt.I think I joined back like a month after it was over and I was like akshdjwn good lol
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Post by ✖ Ꮮꭼꭺꮲꮶꮖꭲ ✖ on Oct 9, 2019 16:30:36 GMT -5
Freshman years when mine started too. In fact it all started with just making one oc for a spur-of-the moment rp over facebook with one of my friends.
She's since had to be scrapped mostly because one of my "friends" just stole her design and is using it to make big money on her brand. I hate her but I can't aver bring it up.
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#a8d1ff
The Ancient One
Name Colour
pumpkin pie
what if i fall? but my dear, what if you fly?
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Post by pumpkin pie on Oct 9, 2019 16:31:33 GMT -5
oh wait what the heck...thats absolutely crazy! and there is nothing you can do?
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Post by Protractor on Oct 9, 2019 16:32:13 GMT -5
I wasn't present for last year's hunt.I think I joined back like a month after it was over and I was like akshdjwn good lol Now you listen here.Last year I would've gotten much more than Turin bc last year I didn't have to worry about school in October and was on some pills that wouldn't let me sleep.When you say good you mean "Lucky us" xd
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Post by ✖ Ꮮꭼꭺꮲꮶꮖꭲ ✖ on Oct 9, 2019 16:32:24 GMT -5
why are you in pain? thats not good.... Scoliosis, chiari malformation, bad knees, general joint pain that's probably arthritic, scars that didn't heal the right way, self-inflicted pain, bad habits
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Post by ✖ Ꮮꭼꭺꮲꮶꮖꭲ ✖ on Oct 9, 2019 16:34:20 GMT -5
oh wait what the heck...thats absolutely crazy! and there is nothing you can do? She's a better artist than I'll ever be and literally does fashion designs for known brands and comic books. Even if I did say anything it would A) fall on deaf ears because I'm a nobody or the internet will send me death threats and call me a liar.
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#a8d1ff
The Ancient One
Name Colour
pumpkin pie
what if i fall? but my dear, what if you fly?
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Post by pumpkin pie on Oct 9, 2019 16:35:58 GMT -5
oh I'm sorry :/ that's terrible o:
wow...thats crazy and she could at least give you a little credit...thats just messed up :/
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#a8d1ff
The Ancient One
Name Colour
pumpkin pie
what if i fall? but my dear, what if you fly?
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Post by pumpkin pie on Oct 9, 2019 16:36:40 GMT -5
Now you listen here.Last year I would've gotten much more than Turin bc last year I didn't have to worry about school in October and was on some pills that wouldn't let me sleep.When you say good you mean "Lucky us" xd trust me. last year was not fun though. it was stressful and it destroyed us.
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Post by ✖ Ꮮꭼꭺꮲꮶꮖꭲ ✖ on Oct 9, 2019 16:39:51 GMT -5
I know exactly when she did it too because we sat next to each other in an art class my sophomore/her senior year and she watched me draw my character a few times. Then after she graduated I found her public page and she had drawn my character better than i did but renamed her and added some dumb crown of thorns thing on her head and made her armor spikier and it's "her persona".
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Post by Protractor on Oct 9, 2019 16:40:25 GMT -5
Now you listen here.Last year I would've gotten much more than Turin bc last year I didn't have to worry about school in October and was on some pills that wouldn't let me sleep.When you say good you mean "Lucky us" xd trust me. last year was not fun though. it was stressful and it destroyed us. Oof!You see,this is why I limit human interaction.People get real scary real fast
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Post by ✖ Ꮮꭼꭺꮲꮶꮖꭲ ✖ on Oct 9, 2019 16:41:18 GMT -5
Humans succ
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#a8d1ff
The Ancient One
Name Colour
pumpkin pie
what if i fall? but my dear, what if you fly?
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Post by pumpkin pie on Oct 9, 2019 16:43:40 GMT -5
that is just messed up man...messed up.
and yes. yes they do!
a certain few are decent but the majority...
cats are better
i love my cat
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Asexual
#ca55a0
Name Colour
Rανєη'ѕ ƑƖιgнт
Rebel Queen
Art by Nicoletta Baldari
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Post by Rανєη'ѕ ƑƖιgнт on Oct 9, 2019 16:48:00 GMT -5
When did the candy event start exactly? I feel like I’m a few days behind.
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Post by Protractor on Oct 9, 2019 16:48:25 GMT -5
Cats are great but they can't talk back to you often enough.That's why the voices are better
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Post by ✖ Ꮮꭼꭺꮲꮶꮖꭲ ✖ on Oct 9, 2019 16:49:19 GMT -5
Cats are best amninals
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Post by Protractor on Oct 9, 2019 16:51:34 GMT -5
I want a pet sea lion
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Post by ✖ Ꮮꭼꭺꮲꮶꮖꭲ ✖ on Oct 9, 2019 16:52:47 GMT -5
I want a pet fennec
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#a8d1ff
The Ancient One
Name Colour
pumpkin pie
what if i fall? but my dear, what if you fly?
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Post by pumpkin pie on Oct 9, 2019 16:52:54 GMT -5
When did the candy event start exactly? I feel like I’m a few days behind. like 4/5 days maybe? idk exactly...hmm time flies... Cats are great but they can't talk back to you often enough. That's why the voices are betterbut when they meow...o m g true statement
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#a8d1ff
The Ancient One
Name Colour
pumpkin pie
what if i fall? but my dear, what if you fly?
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Post by pumpkin pie on Oct 9, 2019 16:53:09 GMT -5
omg fennec foxes are adorable
i want a hedgehog......
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Post by ✖ Ꮮꭼꭺꮲꮶꮖꭲ ✖ on Oct 9, 2019 16:53:35 GMT -5
My cat gets sassy and talks back when I yell at her for being bad.
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#a8d1ff
The Ancient One
Name Colour
pumpkin pie
what if i fall? but my dear, what if you fly?
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Post by pumpkin pie on Oct 9, 2019 16:55:33 GMT -5
lol omg
i need to post a pic of my baby
she's so cute
i love her
like
idk she meows so much lol
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Post by Protractor on Oct 9, 2019 16:56:00 GMT -5
Mine falls asleep
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