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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Sept 26, 2017 17:32:11 GMT -5
im feeling really good today!! i did well on an exam, been eating healthy all day, econ was cancelled, went to the gym. so here's a selfie im sorry ignore the oily crown i put half a bottle of dry shampoo in itkit-kat: im sorry, that sounds awful i've struggled with paranoia in the past, although not that seriously, so i have sincere empathy. i'll pray for you.
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Post by Deleted on Sept 26, 2017 17:34:17 GMT -5
Yeah I've heard similar stories that were a result of birth control (chronic depression, mood swings, etc). It really does mess with your hormones But all the same (even if it's not that) I hope every thing gets better ^^ #praying @shad Wooah (youlooklikeanormalperson) 8o I on the other hand look like a disheveled squirrel that likes to wear black. XD Glad to hear everythings going okay tho uvub
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Post by KittyClearsight on Sept 26, 2017 20:14:51 GMT -5
A hypnotist who can do therapeutic stuff came over today. She actually did a lot better on me than I thought she would, a lot of anxiety went away
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Post by Splintercat on Sept 27, 2017 0:09:31 GMT -5
My Court of Honor went well, God be praised. I’m now officially an Eagle Scout. I had to do a speech, which, somewhat surprisingly, went well, and when I played it back it was better than I thought. Thanks for your prayers.
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Post by Splintercat on Sept 27, 2017 0:13:20 GMT -5
Pretty... not good tbh lol I fell into another deep depression and I'm having so many anxiety attacks, haven't been eating at all (I've been forgetting to, no hunger pains at all), and last night I was freaking out so bad and I guess I turned my bedroom light on to do something but I have no idea what, when I went to sleep I had my light off and my dad came in asking if everything was alright because my light was left on, which I never do. I've been having so much paranoia about extremely irrational things, like despite the fact there's literally NO way I could be I've been afraid I'm pregnant again, and even had the thought "what if I'm having the antichrist?" And no, it was not just a humorous 'what if' type of thought, I legit was afraid that was the case. Also paranoid about having stomach cancer, since my eating habits are so odd and I've been having nausea and I know these symptoms are just because of hormonal stuff going haywire in my body, and the paranoia stuff is also a part of it. I hate it. I'm going to talk to my psychiatrist in October about my medication and all, and possibly remove the birth control implant I have because that could be what is completely screwing me up. Yeah lots of madness in my mind for sure. I can't wait till it all blows over. Hey long time no see I briefly used to have the intrusive thought od , “What if I AM the antichrist?”, and also lots ofparanoia about my health, so I get where you’re coming from. Hope the birth control implant is what’s causing it and is able to be fixed, and if not, I still hope you get better >3
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Post by Splintercat on Sept 27, 2017 0:16:08 GMT -5
Pretty... not good tbh lol I fell into another deep depression and I'm having so many anxiety attacks, haven't been eating at all (I've been forgetting to, no hunger pains at all), and last night I was freaking out so bad and I guess I turned my bedroom light on to do something but I have no idea what, when I went to sleep I had my light off and my dad came in asking if everything was alright because my light was left on, which I never do. I've been having so much paranoia about extremely irrational things, like despite the fact there's literally NO way I could be I've been afraid I'm pregnant again, and even had the thought "what if I'm having the antichrist?" And no, it was not just a humorous 'what if' type of thought, I legit was afraid that was the case. Also paranoid about having stomach cancer, since my eating habits are so odd and I've been having nausea and I know these symptoms are just because of hormonal stuff going haywire in my body, and the paranoia stuff is also a part of it. I hate it. I'm going to talk to my psychiatrist in October about my medication and all, and possibly remove the birth control implant I have because that could be what is completely screwing me up. Yeah lots of madness in my mind for sure. I can't wait till it all blows over. Hey long time no see I briefly used to have the intrusive thought od , “What if I AM the antichrist?”, and also lots ofparanoia about my health, so I get where you’re coming from. Hope the birth control implant is what’s causing it and is able to be fixed, and if not, I still hope you get better >3 Can we talk about the fact that I just typed “>3” as a heart sign
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Post by Splintercat on Sept 27, 2017 0:16:37 GMT -5
And “od”. Wow, I need some sleep, or smaller thumbs.
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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Sept 27, 2017 23:46:15 GMT -5
y'all send help ive been an awkward mess tonight i havent been able to converse like a normal person all evening with anyone and i want to never show my face in public again
"hi, what's your name?" "oh, shad" "im anthony" "okay"
"the liddy-hop is the grandfather of all swing dance. all modern swing is descended from it." "so its the descendants. the...the posterity."
"im justin by the way" "ive never met a justin so you have a special place in my heart now"
"im sorry im too dominant to dance correctly"
please send help these poor men will never talk to me again
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Post by Dreamers Delight on Sept 28, 2017 16:18:46 GMT -5
y'all send help ive been an awkward mess tonight i havent been able to converse like a normal person all evening with anyone and i want to never show my face in public again "hi, what's your name?" "oh, shad" "im anthony" "okay" "the liddy-hop is the grandfather of all swing dance. all modern swing is descended from it." "so its the descendants. the...the posterity." "im justin by the way" "ive never met a justin so you have a special place in my heart now" "im sorry im too dominant to dance correctly" please send help these poor men will never talk to me again You told someone your name is Shad?
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Post by Dreamers Delight on Sept 28, 2017 16:20:20 GMT -5
I'm in a lil pit of depression and hormonally-induced pain. Oh no. Do you know what's going on?
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Post by Splintercat on Sept 28, 2017 16:49:26 GMT -5
I'm in a lil pit of depression and hormonally-induced pain. What a great experience. You okay?
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Post by Deleted on Sept 28, 2017 19:55:41 GMT -5
y'all send help ive been an awkward mess tonight i havent been able to converse like a normal person all evening with anyone and i want to never show my face in public again "hi, what's your name?" "oh, shad" "im anthony" "okay" "the liddy-hop is the grandfather of all swing dance. all modern swing is descended from it." "so its the descendants. the...the posterity." "im justin by the way" "ive never met a justin so you have a special place in my heart now" "im sorry im too dominant to dance correctly" please send help these poor men will never talk to me again You told someone your name is Shad? idk I would think with lines like that you would have all the guys running after you. But then again, Im the town 4everalone gal, queen of awkward silences and conversation enders.
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Post by Deleted on Sept 28, 2017 20:03:57 GMT -5
I'm in a lil pit of depression and hormonally-induced pain. ;-;
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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Sept 28, 2017 21:46:55 GMT -5
You told someone your name is Shad? ha! no, i just used it as a stand in for online
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#add8e6
Name Colour
*Ravenpaw*
Warrior Fanatic
*reads books in a corner*
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Post by *Ravenpaw* on Sept 29, 2017 16:12:19 GMT -5
I'm in a lil pit of depression and hormonally-induced pain. *Hugs*
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Post by Deleted on Sept 30, 2017 14:48:27 GMT -5
my grandma got rid of a bunch of my cats, including my favorite. i'm really sad. pray that they go to good homes
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Post by Deleted on Sept 30, 2017 16:40:59 GMT -5
my grandma got rid of a bunch of my cats, including my favorite. i'm really sad. pray that they go to good homes aw man I'm so sorry that must be very hard. Will be praying
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Post by Dreamers Delight on Sept 30, 2017 22:47:13 GMT -5
my grandma got rid of a bunch of my cats, including my favorite. i'm really sad. pray that they go to good homes I'll be praying as well. I hope they go to a nice place.
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#add8e6
Name Colour
*Ravenpaw*
Warrior Fanatic
*reads books in a corner*
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Post by *Ravenpaw* on Oct 1, 2017 12:31:30 GMT -5
my grandma got rid of a bunch of my cats, including my favorite. i'm really sad. pray that they go to good homes I'm so sorry.
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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Oct 1, 2017 17:19:45 GMT -5
this has been the busiest weekend i've ever had, from a social standpoint
one thursday night i took a bunch of people to target for stuff and that was a wild ride. it was my sister's car, which i wasn't used to, and 4 noisy college kids as well, to i was nervous and unsure. and the visibility was bad. so my driving was....not good and we may have almost died. i dont think they believed me when i said im actually a decent driver.
friday night was normal up until i get call from a friend at 8:00 at night like "hey wanna get tacos with us." i'd already eaten dinner but didn't have any urgent homework so i went to meet them. what they didnt tell me was that it was a 20 min uber ride downtown and was super popular, and the line went out the door. by the time we got our food, ate, and got back, it was 10:00. not only did i miss rosary, but the group was watching the second LOTR movie afterwards. i came in at about the 2/3 point, watched for 10 minutes, then they were like "okay people are falling asleep so we're gonna continue this some other time" rip
yesterday was my best friend's birthday, so i left at about noon to go celebrate with her. they picked me up from the rail station, and we got lunch at chik-fil-a. then she, myself, her parents, brother, and two friends went to a panic/escape room. it was a blast! we finished with 10 minutes to spare and the gamemaster seemed impressed. afterwards we wandered the mall for awhile and had dinner at the cheesecake factory. then they dropped me off at the station again (i love my soror so much omg she is precious <3 and puts up with me so well) anyways to get back on the rail i have to change rail lines at one station. however, at that station, the train to my destination didn't come. it was bizarre. like the sign said it had arrived but it didn't. then another train came that the loudspeaker said was going to my station but it was going the wrong way??? after 45 min i got fed up and called my sister, since i was only about 7 min away from campus at that point.
i got back at around 9:00. originally my friend and i were gonna go see kingsman today, but i found out that she and a bunch of rosary people were gonna go last night. so i found them all eating ramen outside her door. the plan was the 9:45 showing, but it was like 9:34 and we were still eating ramen and one guy was like "we can still make it if we run." joe started serenading us on his guitar. we eventually went to the 10:30 showing. the movie was bomb. about what you'd expect from an R-rated action spy movie (lots of language and violence but actually very little sexual content for once). suitcases turning into machine guns. umbrella shields. guys being turned into ground meat. it was a fun time. we got out around 1:00, and my cries to return to campus fell on deaf ears as every decided to go to whataburger. we spent an hour at that whataburger. i didnt get to sleep until 2:30. wah wah.
i woke up at 7:50 this morning so i could go with some people to the latin mass. we get there early for the rosary, then the 2 hours high mass, then 20 min of adoration, and this time we stayed over for their free breakfast. it was actually kind of nice?? half of the people we came with left right after so i got to talk to these 2-3 other people and get to know them a lot more. they're chill.
so i finally get back to campus at like 12:30, with plans to take a nice nap. and not even 5 minutes later i get text from a friend inviting me to go to cracker barrel with them. i have a paper due tomorrow that i need to work on, but my weakness won out and i went with them. it was a lot of fun, just the four of us. i got to eat actual steak for the first time in months.
i got back at like 2, set a nap timer for 20 minutes, and woke up 2 hours later. called my parents. typed this up. now i really need to work on my paper--i got an online done on friday but it's still gonna be at least a few hours. :/ and im celebrating another friend's birthday tonight so i want to get my work done before that.
so yeah. if you've ever wondered what college life is like at a small, catholic university...
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Post by Rainstorm1026 on Oct 1, 2017 18:19:17 GMT -5
Sounds awesome!
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#add8e6
Name Colour
*Ravenpaw*
Warrior Fanatic
*reads books in a corner*
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Post by *Ravenpaw* on Oct 1, 2017 19:19:26 GMT -5
I would die if I had to do that much. 0.0
But those things sound fun.
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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Oct 1, 2017 19:56:22 GMT -5
I would die if I had to do that much. 0.0 But those things sound fun. the introvert part of me has been screaming since 10am to stop but my mind's been too rational lately and was like "hey you should take the chance to bond with these people" because im always scared about being left behind socially, since that's happened to me in the past im glad i went to all that stuff but i think this week i'll take it easier, for my own sanity's sake
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Post by Splintercat on Oct 2, 2017 9:07:07 GMT -5
Please pray for the victims of the Las Vegas shooting. What a horrible, horrible event.
My sister and her husband were there. Her husband was right in the line of fire and almost died, but was able to get away with minor injuries. Thank God they’re okay.
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Post by Deleted on Oct 2, 2017 9:11:00 GMT -5
Splintercat ;; I will be praying.
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Post by KittyClearsight on Oct 2, 2017 10:05:58 GMT -5
Please pray for the victims of the Las Vegas shooting. What a horrible, horrible event. My sister and her husband were there. Her husband was right in the line of fire and almost died, but was able to get away with minor injuries. Thank God they’re okay. Definitely praying, and I'm glad to hear your brother in law is okay.
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Post by Deleted on Oct 2, 2017 10:06:09 GMT -5
Will definitely pray, Tree. That's seriously horrible :c Rosa Hi Rosa! first I love your siggy haha. Second, welcome! I'm Convictions, but just call me Spotted or my unofficial nickname for this thread, Ted, as I change my screenname a lot. Anywho, it's really cool to have you! And I understand your predicament. I have been in a place several times where I just don't feel as on fire for God as I want to. Kinda going through something like that right now. It definitely sucks, but one thing I have learned is not to place everything on feelings. I always feel like I did something wrong if I don't feel God nearby, but that's not necessarily the case. There are many reasons for Him to be silent and it doesn't mean you did something wrong. My best advice would be just to stick with Him, keep reading your Bible and praying every day
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Post by KittyClearsight on Oct 2, 2017 10:06:14 GMT -5
Hey. I'm Rosa. Not sure if you require introductions but here goes. I'm a Christian and have been (on October 31st actually) for thirteen years. I was raised in a Christian home. I went to a Baptist church from 8-20 then decided I personally didn't feel fulfilled and am now at a traditional Methodist church. I'm in a bit of a jam. I'm not feeling on fire and not necessarily that I'm denying God but not really running after him either. I thought accountability would be good. So hi. I'm here. Welcome!!
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Rosa
Call me Rosa: 21, music lover, teacher, Irish American, sassy but all about spreading love♡
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Post by Rosa on Oct 2, 2017 10:12:55 GMT -5
Please pray for the victims of the Las Vegas shooting. What a horrible, horrible event. My sister and her husband were there. Her husband was right in the line of fire and almost died, but was able to get away with minor injuries. Thank God they’re okay. Definitely praying, and I'm glad to hear your brother in law is okay. Prayers. I'm so sorry.... Will definitely pray, Tree. That's seriously horrible :c Rosa Hi Rosa! first I love your siggy haha. Second, welcome! I'm Convictions, but just call me Spotted or my unofficial nickname for this thread, Ted, as I change my screenname a lot. Anywho, it's really cool to have you! And I understand your predicament. I have been in a place several times where I just don't feel as on fire for God as I want to. Kinda going through something like that right now. It definitely sucks, but one thing I have learned is not to place everything on feelings. I always feel like I did something wrong if I don't feel God nearby, but that's not necessarily the case. There are many reasons for Him to be silent and it doesn't mean you did something wrong. My best advice would be just to stick with Him, keep reading your Bible and praying every day That was the best reminder you could have given me. I have terrible anxiety and in my mind everything that happens is a result of me doing something wrong. Thank you for that. ♡
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