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strider
No mourners, no funerals
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Post by strider on Nov 15, 2020 23:59:28 GMT -5
Nico hesitated, not turning back to look at Kelsier, but not walking forward either. There were people by Myrnin on the couch already. Granted, one of them was Hook, which might make the situation worse, not better, but still. The last thing Myrnin needed was the person who had caused the issue in the first place there too. "Really?" he murmured, voice colder than he'd intended it to be. "Because right now I don't think I'm his friend, I think I'm just the guy who hurt him really, really badly." He let his hand curl into a fist inside his jacket pocket, trying desperately to just keep walking forward and let whatever was happening in the living room happen. "If I were him, I wouldn't want to see me right now." he squeezed his eyes shut for a moment before taking another few steps deeper into the hallway.
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Post by ~∂єѕтιиу on Nov 16, 2020 0:10:14 GMT -5
Hook sniffed absently as he contemplated moving, though he found an arm firmly wrapped around him before he could commit to it. He gave a confused glare in Myrnin’s direction, instinctively wincing in the opposite direction as his ribs ached. “Myrnin,” he hissed, awkwardly readjusting himself so he could free his good arm. “[oops] sake, Myrnin,” he grunted, pushing the vampire’s head towards Enj as he tried in vain to free himself from an iron grip. After the initial shock, the pirate finally realized the vampire was crying, which earned a groan of annoyance. Letting go of the leech’s skull, he wiggled to get a grasp on his flask, hoping he could ignore whatever was happening a little longer.
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Post by ®Hawkpath® on Nov 16, 2020 0:10:48 GMT -5
Kelsier didn’t come any closer. He knew better than to try and close that distance right now. Nico needed someone, and he needed someone to stand at the right distance and say the right things, and right now Kel wasn’t sure what that meant. He wasn’t good at this. He wasn’t usually the person who gave comfort or advice, he was the person who ignored other people’s advice in favor of his own ideas and plans. But right now, his friend was hurting, and so he was going to put all that aside and do what he needed to do to make this right again. “I think you’re forgetting that you and he are not the same person.” He said quietly. “Whether you would want him to come near you is up for debate, and I won’t argue with you about that now. The question is, what does he want? What does he need?” He didn’t follow as Nico kept walking, but he did keep talking, his voice still soft but firm and it carried, “You know him better than I do, but he did kill me to save you.” A reference he knew was fresh in both their minds. “So I think it’s pretty unlikely that he’s going to suddenly decide you’re not worth that anymore because you made one mistake. Give him a little credit.”
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Post by mintedstar/fur on Nov 16, 2020 0:14:03 GMT -5
"Depends," said Myrnin. "Usually they can talk and understand us if they blink in. I assume these aren't the same sorts of dogs." But he was always doubtful whether or not the House really just ... made them. "I would say they're real," he said. Who was he to define what there existence meant or not? He wasn't them. "Why do you think there are so many of them?" he asked after a second, looking around. There were an great many dogs. "I like it though," he said, looking around. Ah! There was one. He pointed the corgi out to Touka. "I had a dog like that!" he said brightly. He looked back at her, wondering if she had any idea about what they were.
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strider
No mourners, no funerals
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Post by strider on Nov 16, 2020 0:16:54 GMT -5
Nico froze again, then immediately turned on Kelsier, expression intense but unreadable. "Gods, Kelsier. Did you ever wonder why I don't have friends in my world, huh?" The words flew out of him before he could stop them, but he did mean them. "I don't know how to help him. I don't know what he needs, I just know that I'm the reason he's out there crying, and I'm tired of hurting people every single time I try to help!" He slammed his mouth shut, trying to keep his jaw from wobbling. He stared at Kelsier for a very long moment, chest trembling with the effort of trying to keep his breaths even, as though he weren't upset. "Go be there for him," he managed softly. "I'm not going to make this about me when he's the one who's hurting."
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Post by mintedstar/fur on Nov 16, 2020 0:29:16 GMT -5
The comforting squeeze was appreciated. The rather rambunctious pirate was honestly expected and Hook surprisingly handled it better than the screaming child Myrnin had pictured. The issue now other than the overwhelming memory of darkness at the back of his eyes - in more ways than one (was his fear of the dark just tied to his innate fear of dying? probably.) He could hear Nico and Kelsier. Probably better than Hook and Enjolras could, if they could hear them at all. He was shaking and weighed his options. Then he unwrapped his shaking arm from around Enjolras, because honestly why not? Though was Hook really a competent option. With blood-shot eyes (with actual blood) Myrnin blinked at Enjolras. Hoping that the Frenchman knew what he wanted. And if he didn't, well ... Well too bad for Myrnin, I guess.
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Post by ®Hawkpath® on Nov 16, 2020 0:29:47 GMT -5
Kelsier’s eyes narrowed, but he didn’t interrupt. He just let Nico fling the words at him, because he knew they weren’t intended for him, not really. They were meant to fly right back at the boy throwing them. He wasn’t going to back down. He didn’t back down, he didn’t flinch. “I’m not in your world.” He answered finally, not looking away for a moment. “I don’t know what it’s like for you there. But I know damn well what it’s like in the House, so don’t tell me that you don’t have friends. Don’t you dare stand there and tell me that.” He shook his head. “That’s debatable. I could stand here and argue with you for hours, and I think you’d find I’d make a very good case.” He told him, standing still, not moving forward or back. Then he shook his head slowly. “He barely knows me.” He pointed out. “I’ll be there for him. I promise you that. But I’m not who he needs right now. You don’t know what he needs? Well, Nico, I have friends in my world, and I think if I were to accidentally hurt them very badly, they would feel very bad if I were to walk away like I didn’t care.” His eyes softened. “I know you. I know you’re trying to do the right thing. But walking away right now is a mistake you can’t take back. I won’t stop you, but please...think about it from his perspective first. Because if you’re wrong...” He didn’t blink. “Myrnin is a good man. Talk to him. Tell him what happened. Then if he still chooses to turn away, he’ll have all the information he needs to do it.”
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Transgender
strider
No mourners, no funerals
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Post by strider on Nov 16, 2020 0:40:21 GMT -5
"I never said I didn't have friends here." Nico replied quietly, looking anywhere but Kelsier. "But I don't know how to keep them." He clenched his teeth, trying to articulate what he meant, trying to explain to Kelsier that he'd done everything he'd known how to do before everyone had died, and he didn't know what to do beyond that. He swallowed, eyes locked on the floor as he took what Kelsier was saying. "The only thing I can do is make it worse," he murmured, shoulders hunching. Other people knew how to talk to people. Other people knew what to do when their friends were hurting, knew how to apologize. Other people knew the right things to say. Nico just... didn't. "Don't you dare insinuate I don't care," he added softly but intensely, half turning to walk away again. He didn't want to. If Kelsier was right, and there was even the slightest possibility that Myrnin might want to see him... he didn't want to do that in front of people. Finally, he met Kelsier's gaze. "Do you really think going back is the right thing? Not... not giving him time or... something else?"
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Post by ~∂єѕтιиу on Nov 16, 2020 0:42:23 GMT -5
The pirate had finally gotten a grasp on his flask when Myrnin shifted more weight in his direction, nearly causing him to drop it on his lap. With the first sliver of fortune he’d seen that day, he managed to keep his grasp, though the disturbance resulted in a sharp jab at Myrnin with his elbow. While wrestling the vampire for a more comfortable position, he noticed he’d let go of the frenchman, which earned a exclamation with even more volume. “What the [oops], Myrnin?!” He made angry eye contact with Enjolras, clearly not sharing his intent to help the vampire feel better. “Let me go asshole, you’re feelings ain’t my [oops]in’ problem,”
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Post by mintedstar/fur on Nov 16, 2020 0:49:19 GMT -5
Well, looked like Myrnin wasn't going to answer. He didn't think he'd found his tongue just yet. It was hard to work out two consecutive things at once other than the fact that he wanted - or at least felt like he needed - to cry a bit longer. Why did the House have to do this to him? It didn't seem fair. Hook's protests were ignored. At least for now. Myrnin seemed more intent on hugging anything nearby, so Hook better start learning magic and conjure up something better, or he was stuck with Myrnin and his problems.
That, or he unhooked an arm from around ... well, Hook ... and shifted his weight again. Enjolras got a second hug. Apparently it had been deemed that Myrnin wasn't going to wait and see if he could help Myrnin, since this silent looking wasn't getting anywhere.
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Post by ®Hawkpath® on Nov 16, 2020 0:52:42 GMT -5
Kelsier dipped his head. Whether Nico had friends outside the House wasn’t something he knew enough about to argue. That wasn’t the point here, anyway. The point was that someone very strong was lying on the couch crying, and he was pretty sure that Nico was the only one who could really make it right. Not to mention the pain Nico was in, too. He didn’t answer immediately. He wasn’t good at this, he knew that. “That’s not all you can do.” He said firmly. “That’s not the only option here. He’s hurting already, and I don’t know what happened, but it must have been pretty bad. I also know you never intended to hurt him. He watched as Nico turned away., his hazel eyes intense and focused. “You’re right.” He told the demigod. “I know you care. You care a hell of a lot more than a lot of people I know.” He knew this was hard, but he also knew that this wasn’t going to end well if Nico just walked away, and he didn’t want to see this torn apart, not because of a stupid accident in a chaotic room where no one had been thinking clearly. “I think it is.” He promised. “Listen, I know that having this conversation right here isn’t ideal. Especially not since he’s here.” That was clearly aimed at Hook. “So here’s one thing we could do. You go to the hall, and I’ll bring him to you, and you two can talk without a lot of people towering over you. Okay?” It wasn’t perfect. But he hoped it was enough.
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Lark
Hello, its just, me, and 1567396558397583479 larks
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Post by Lark on Nov 16, 2020 0:55:23 GMT -5
Steve didn't know he had it in himself to grab Mabel's hand trying to shake it. Before he knew it, the preppy girl was gone in the blink of an eye. What replaced her was a wave of flames that over took the chaotic room, voices too loud and panicked for him to properly understand. It was too much for Steve to handle despite what the last week of his life had been spiraling down into madness as well. Whatever caused everything to hit the fan it was quick and painless.
Sooner or later, Steve's senses came back to him when the teen blinked back into the living room leaning right next to the last, horrid smelling pirate to sail the seven sees. One drink might do him in, he saw the pirate indulging himself to his misery. Misery likes company. "Didn't know you had friends." Steve's words sounded genuine, less panicked when they first met. Facing the pirate would reveal his completely battered face, bruises and scrapes that he couldn't hide behind a glamourous facade. "Today has been full of surprises, huh?"
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Post by ~∂єѕтιиу on Nov 16, 2020 1:04:29 GMT -5
Hook was becoming progressively less difficult for the vampire to maneuver, entirely due to the fact his flask was now accessible. He still didn’t seem happy about it, but he hurt too badly to keep trying to get away. He waited impatiently for Myrnin to get bored of him, but was instead pushed closer to the vampire when a forth body appeared on the coach. With a strained, “hmph,” the pirate turned a furious eye towards Steve. “Get the [oop] off me, or I’ll beat your face uglier than it already is,” he snapped.
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Pansexual
Cloverleaf
For certain as our banner flies, we are not alone. The people too must rise.
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Post by Cloverleaf on Nov 16, 2020 1:07:16 GMT -5
And apparently what Myrnin needed he couldn't quite explain and Enjolras couldn't guess. He froze as Myrnin went in for a second hug, but gave him another pat. The vampire always seemed a bit... haughty, or overpowered in a way that Enjolras shied away from. But seeing mere darkness put him into this shaking, weeping state gave Enjolras another perspective on the mad genius. "Auh- do you know the other blinker in the hallway-" Enjolras attempted, hoping Myrnin knew Kelsier enough to perhaps hand the vampire off to him. Or Nico knew him as well, but the boy was touchy, and almost certainly not a hugger.
"And that's why he doesn't have friends." Enjolras couldn't help but throw in a comment as Steve and Hook had an exchange. Though Enjolras did appreciate the fact that Hook didn't seem to be going after Myrnin at all, and honestly, was being almost nice to him.
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Transgender
strider
No mourners, no funerals
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Post by strider on Nov 16, 2020 1:16:24 GMT -5
Nico managed to breathe, allowing Kelsier's words to wash over him for a moment. This wasn't an ideal situation, and knowing Hook and Enjolras decently well, he figured it wasn't particularly ideal for either of them either. It was Nico who had put Myrnin in this situation, and it was Nico who had left Myrnin behind for Enjolras and Hook to deal with. As though either of them needed any more reason to dislike him beyond having seen him when he was ten years old and annoying as hell. "The shadows can't hurt people," he added after a moment, in case Kelsier had been wondering. "I wouldn't have taken that risk if they could. Whatever happened, it was because of the shadows, but it wasn't the shadows themselves." that seemed important to note. After a moment he turned so he was mostly facing Kelsier, searching his expression for just a moment. "Yeah. Yeah, okay, if you can get him into the hall..." he gestured vaguely a little further down, where they'd certainly be out of earshot of the others. "If you can't, I'll come back." It was a promise.
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Post by mintedstar/fur on Nov 16, 2020 1:20:48 GMT -5
Well, since there was someone else within arms reach and it arms were long enough ... Not letting go of anyone, but more of leaning further in the direction of Hook, Myrnin rested his head on Steve's shoulder, shaking a touch less, but not so much that it was very noticeably. He was still trembling like a leaf. But now he'd also likely squished Enjolras, Hook, and Steve together by dragging the former two closer to one another. Also Steve's shoulder might get blood on it from Myrnin's crying. Whoops.
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Post by ®Hawkpath® on Nov 16, 2020 1:28:18 GMT -5
Kelsier listened, nodding. It felt important to note that, and he understood why Nico had made the distinction. So...whatever had happened, it had been a reaction on Myrnin’s part, not the shadows themselves. He didn’t know the other blond man at all, and he knew Hook only well enough the point very strongly dislike him. Neither were probably good to have around for this. Besides, whatever Nico thought of them, this wasn’t really about them. It wasn’t about Kelsier, either. He was just trying to help anyway. He nodded once. He didn’t need to say he understood what a promise meant to Nico, they both knew that already. Instead he turned and headed back for the others on the couch, preparing himself to do...well. Whatever he needed to do. “Myrnin.” He said, pausing near the group. They were...hugging. Sort of. They didn’t seem very happy about it. He got the distinct impression they didn’t know the vampire very well. Neither did he, actually. Well enough, though. “Alright, come on.” He said, and reached out a hand to the other blinker. “Trust me. Okay? We’re going to go see Nico. That’s what you need, right? To talk to him?” He hoped he was right. He really, really hoped he was on the right track here. If he’d known Myrnin a little better, maybe he would have been more confident, but all he had right now was a split second decision and the hope that it was the right one.
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Post by mintedstar/fur on Nov 16, 2020 1:46:56 GMT -5
It was clearly not very hard to peel the emotional vampire away from the tired teen, the drunk pirate, or the Frenchman. This might have been good for them, but was slightly debatable for Kelsier, since this basically meant transferring the shaking vampire to hug Kelsier instead. Apparently better than the other three was good enough for Myrnin. He nodded, though it was debatable or not if Kelsier saw. He did need to talk to Nico. He hadn't mean ... he hadn't meant to act like this. Dying scared him. The dark scared him. The two feelings twined together over a frankly stressful last couple of weeks and this was the result. He ... needed to know he wasn't alone. That the darkness behind his eyes - the darkness behind life - wasn't what was here and now. And if hugging Kelsier would help, he was going to hug Kelsier for a second and hope his ... new friend? ... wouldn't find that weird. (Hook, Steve, and Enjolras didn't get that consideration, because Myrnin wasn't friends with them and thus usually weirdness was what he aimed for. Controlled (or at least slightly more predictable) weirdness around friends.)
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Post by ®Hawkpath® on Nov 16, 2020 1:55:53 GMT -5
Kelsier smiled. It wasn’t forced. It wasn’t something he was doing because he felt like he should, and it certainly wasn’t out of pity for the other man. He was concerned, yes, because Myrnin was clearly hurting and his friend had caused the damage. But he wasn’t going to treat Myrnin as anything other who he was. He hugged the vampire back, letting them stand still for a moment. He had a feeling Myrnin needed that. Then he wrapped an arm around his shoulders and began to lead him to the hallway. “I won’t speak for him.” He said softly, glancing at the other blinker as they went. He was aware that the others were probably watching him, but he didn’t mind, because he was pretty sure he had a new friend and he was okay with that. “But as his friend, you know him. Hear him out?” He squeezed the vampire’s shoulders, and entered the hallway, stepping lightly and looking for Nico. He would be there, because he had said he would and he didn’t break his promises.
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Transgender
strider
No mourners, no funerals
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Post by strider on Nov 16, 2020 2:00:21 GMT -5
Nico had gone far enough down the hallway that he felt they couldn't be overheard. Not that he thought Enjolras or Hook particularly cared about whatever it was he was going to talk to Myrnin about, but it still felt better to do this in private, where he could mess it up without anyone judging him for it. Except Kelsier. And Myrnin himself. He pressed his forehead against his knees, hidden well in the shadows until he noticed the movement of shadows - shadows he didn't control - along the wall. That would be Kelsier, then, coming back with Myrnin. Nico pushed himself to his feet, stepping awkwardly into the light and staring at his feet. He didn't know what to say. He didn't know what he was supposed to say, because he had apologized, and apologies became cheap if you used them too many times, especially when the first one hadn't been accepted yet... he squeezed his eyes shut against the thought before he looked up and met Myrnin's bloodshot eyes.
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Post by mintedstar/fur on Nov 16, 2020 2:11:09 GMT -5
Finally, the shaking started to slow a bit. That was good. That was good. Myrnin rubbed at an eye. Uh. He was aware Kelsier had moved them out into the hall and he blinked several times at the surrounding walls until they located where they were going. He'd let Kelsier go at least. Now he just rubbed at his arm, as if he was cold. Was he cold? He couldn't tell. He was too shivery. And then his eyes met Nico's. He was still very tongue tied. But he tried to find what he wanted to say. "Not your fault." There. He ... was still trying very hard not to think about the panic that had swallowed him. But it wasn't Nico's fault.
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Post by ®Hawkpath® on Nov 16, 2020 2:17:23 GMT -5
Kelsier backed off a bit as Myrnin let go of him, and he offered Nico an encouraging smile before he turned and moved towards the entrance to the hall. And then he waited. He was more blocking people from going in that he was waiting for the other two to come out. He couldn’t hear what they were saying anymore, though he could have if he’d been burning tin. But he wasn’t. Because as much as he wanted this to go well, as long as Nico wasn’t in any danger (and Kel didn’t believe he was) this wasn’t about him. So he was just going to sit there and hope it went well, at the same time prepared himself for the possibility that it might not. From what he knew of Myrnin, it would. He hoped it would.
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Post by ~∂єѕтιиу on Nov 16, 2020 2:29:52 GMT -5
Hook huffed in defeat as he was further crammed into a tight hug. He glared at Kelsier as the blond approached, thankful to see someone that could potentially pull Myrnin away from him - despite their supposed conflict. The second he was spared of the vampire, the pirate shoved Steve away from him and distanced himself from Enjolras, seemingly claiming the space as his own. He seemed to shove Steve out of existence as the kid blinked out, but he didn’t pay it much mind considering Enjolras managed to catch him off guard. “The hell for?” He muttered in response, sinking into the couch and taking up as much space as he possibly could without getting too close to the man next to him - though perhaps forcing him further into the other corner of the coach. “The bastards’ just lucky I didn’t get pissed off.”
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