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Post by πππππ πππππππππ on Jan 23, 2017 18:20:08 GMT -5
{Hey it's no problem!~ I'm just excite to reply cx}
Lumi winced in reaction to his touching her arm, moving his hand away by reflex, before relaxing a moment later as if realizing how she had reacted, giving him an apologetic look. She couldn't tell Keaton about what Archer did and said to her when the boys weren't around. She didn't know how he would react, and she didn't want him to go and talk to Archer about it and possibly get her in more trouble. Nor could she tell him about this here, in a McDonalds, but... "Without Archer, I don't have a home. I have no where to live, no where to paint, I have nothing." she said, empathizing nothing, trying to speak loud enough to sound serious but quiet enough so no one could overhear. She may have him to talk to, but in the end...
She didn't see Keaton a lot, since he was busy with studies. He didn't come to Archer's house at all lately, so what kind of support could he be to her? Even if he wanted to be, did he even have the time to make the commitment to try and pull her out? And if he needed help, could she help him with her being so weak?
But even so, Keaton's offer gave her comfort. To know someone was so willing to help her out of this mess she was stuck in, even if she had doubted that she could actually get out. She couldn't imagine a life without Archer after being stuck with him for so long. Without him, she would have freedom, but without him, she wouldn't have a relationship, that fulfilling feeling that came back when she pleased Archer once. But why did she even want to? He didn't even deserve her... The thoughts and emotions twisted and turned in her brain, but she managed to pick one thing out of the mess, letting it slip out of her mouth, "I-I'm just... So scared." she'd never admitted that to anyone before, ever.
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Post by Ζ€Ξ±ΖΖΞ±Ρ β§ on Jan 24, 2017 11:46:36 GMT -5
"Of course you're scared," Keaton said gently "Anyone would be if they were in your situation. And it's okay to be scared. Honestly, I'd give you somewhere to stay if I could, but there's just no way you could stay with me right now. I could come to Archer's house more often if you want me to, so I can see you more, and you can talk to me. I wouldn't even be afraid to talk to Archer for you if you wanted me to. But if you leave him, I'm not staying friends with him either, just so you know that. You're the only reason I even go there at all anymore - I try to avoid them as much as possible, to be completely honest."
He wanted to give her something to lean on, something to rely on, someone to turn to. He was busy at university, yes, but he would give her whatever time he could. He'd dedicate every spare moment to her if he could, if he just had the chance. He really wanted to help her, of course, but it all depended on whether she was willing to let him help her like that. For all he knew, she wasn't really willing to accept any help. Maybe she didn't want to risk leaving him for more than just the uncertainty that would follow. Maybe there was still some love there. Maybe she didn't want to leave him because she was still in love with Archer.
Keaton would never know her reasons for her hesitation - he would never know what had happened to her or what was going through her head in that moment. But what he did know was that he was willing to do quite literally anything to help this girl and to make her happy in any way he could.
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Post by πππππ πππππππππ on Jan 25, 2017 2:24:00 GMT -5
"No, no." Lumi insisted, shaking her head as if she was panicking slightly, trying to look calm though fear clouded over in her eyes, "You can't ever talk to him about it. Do not, ever." she repeated. She gulped a bit as he told her she was pretty much the only reason he ever visited anymore, which made her feel equally guilty and equally... Happy? Guilty because she felt bad that he was around Archer because of her, and happy because she didn't really think anyone really wanted to be around her anymore. She was a shell of her former self, uninteresting and empty, yet Keaton still wanted to be around her, even help her. She wasn't completely stupid... If he promised to help her out, maybe it wasn't that bad. She looked down at the table, as if in thought, before looking back up at Keaton and studying her face for a couple moments, trying to figure out if he was lying or not. After a couple of a seconds, she took a deep breath before speaking.
"Only come over if you can. It'll keep Archer from getting upset, and it'll be... Nice, to have someone around," she said, pulling her chicken nuggets back towards her and nibbling on another. She was actually pretty lonely, really, and if she was lonely and one of the biggest factors keeping her from leaving Archer was loneliness in itself, then what kind of logic was that? It wasn't as if she felt feelings for him anymore... No, those feelings of love and attachment had changed into fear and desperation a long time ago. She just... Wanted to be good enough for someone, but no matter where she went, she wasn't good enough for anyone, "But only come if you can and you're not pushing yourself, okay? But... Please come." she asked politely, looking up at him with a wide eye'd expression. And even though she may had not meant it to look like she needed him, or was even begging him, it was written on her face. No matter how much she wanted to avoid being a burden, Lumi couldn't deny the fact that she did need someone. And fast, before this got even worse.
{Ahhhhh sorry!! I was really busy yesterday but managed to stick somethng tgether soooo early ; ~ ; Overwatch had my attention RIP}
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