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Post by Salt on Oct 8, 2016 22:12:39 GMT -5
"I'm John Laurens in the place to be!" OOC~
They were teasing about my depression all week. It's frustrating, really, when something that effects your life like that is a joke to your "friends". My roommates care, they've kept me here longer than I could've myself, no, this isn't a suicide note or goodbye. My "friends" threw me into our Skype chat, we talked like normal, then they kicked me out. Wolf's Howl, who was in the chat, reinvited me. They were talking smack about me. Here's some of what they said, I wrote it down.
1: Salt is such an emo! Always seekin' attention and whatnot. 2: Yes. No one gives a * about her. She can go kill herself. 3: Her obsession with that musical, the Hamilton one. It's retarted. Only nerds that deserve to die listen to it, or see it! 5: Wolf's Howl, go tell her to kill herself. WH: Fine. I'll tell her it's- Me: You don't need to. Wolf, I know you don't mean that. 1,2,3,4,5: Gtfo! Me: Would the world be better off dead? 1,3,4,5: Of course! No one cares about you. Me: Maybe I will!
So here I am, writing suicide notes. I won't do it, I'm too weak.
@winterlynx 🎃❅❖.Şp໐໐kฯຟiຖ໓.❖❅🎃 ѕρσσкуѕку Rushingwolf Sparrowstep rose Ðᴏʟᴄᴇ Joker ♡ Bun ♡ noble.
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Post by shortstop on Oct 8, 2016 22:20:01 GMT -5
//hugs hey. these people are not your friends. if they would tell you any of these things, even let it cross your mind, then they can go **** themselves. they do not appreciate you and do not deserve you. there is so much ahead of you, and the future can offer you so much if you just hold on. this is only temporary. there are people out there waiting to meet you who will make you feel happy, the happiness you deserve. not committing suicide is not a sign of weakness. it's a sign of strength, that you can keep toughing out what you've got, which you can. I believe in you. <3
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Post by ~☽~Mσσɳвʟᴀzᴇ~☾~ on Oct 8, 2016 22:21:40 GMT -5
That's terrible! You should drop all those "friends" immediately. Anyone who talks like that isn't worth your time and energy.
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Post by Salt on Oct 8, 2016 22:25:56 GMT -5
That's terrible! You should drop all those "friends" immediately. Anyone who talks like that isn't worth your time and energy. "I'm John Laurens in the place to be!" OOC~
Oh, I've already dropped them. I recorded the convo and am hopefully going to get them law problems with the evidence.
Roleplay- "Lafayette!" ~Hamilton
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Post by 𝕡𝕖𝕡𝕡𝕖𝕣𝕞𝕚𝕟𝕥 on Oct 8, 2016 22:28:04 GMT -5
Those "friends" of yours are terrible people for saying all of that. You're a strong, amazing person, and if they can't see that, then you're too good for them.
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Post by Salt on Oct 8, 2016 22:29:48 GMT -5
Those "friends" of yours are terrible people for saying all of that. You're a strong, amazing person, and if they can't see that, then you're too good for them. "I'm John Laurens in the place to be!" OOC~
We showed them that, we definitely did.
We totally murdered them. We played them the recording, my roommates and I.
Roleplay- "Lafayette!" ~Hamilton
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Post by shortstop on Oct 8, 2016 22:34:41 GMT -5
Listen- I know you can do this. I know it doesn't feel like you can, but you CAN. There are some things you can't control- what your "friends" think is one of them, but what you can control is how much you care. if they don't give a crap about you, then they're not worth your time and you shouldn't give a crap about them either. you can control how you fight back. I know how self-harm feels, I've been there. But the few seconds of relief are nothing compared to a lifetime of joy ahead that you could have. don't give up. don't bring that blade any closer- it is not worth it. you are worth it, your health is worth it. it is a long journey to pulling yourself out, i'm not going to lie. but there are people who are willing to listen to you and help you stop when you feel ready and able to do so. but that's what's worth it- finding people that truly love you and are willing to help you.
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Post by Sour Candy on Oct 8, 2016 22:40:31 GMT -5
Do I need to get my damn beatin' stick
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Post by Salt on Oct 8, 2016 22:41:10 GMT -5
"I'm John Laurens in the place to be!" OOC~
I have found people who care. You, several other forumers, my roommates. You all have put away your time to help me. I fudging helpless! Lomgest I've gone without cutting is a weeks, I use anything. My pencils, teeth, nails, my lizards claws. The only reason I'm online roght now is self harm. I know it's bad but it's either this or suicide and I came this close to succeeding in suicide once. I was 95% there! Even if I find the light in the future, no one will want to be an emos friend. The result of self-harm. Plus, I'm asexual, meaning I don't want romance.
Roleplay- "Lafayette!" ~Hamilton
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Post by Salt on Oct 8, 2016 22:41:32 GMT -5
Do I need to get my damn beatin' stick "I'm John Laurens in the place to be!" OOC~
Yes.
Roleplay- "Lafayette!" ~Hamilton
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Post by Sour Candy on Oct 8, 2016 22:46:14 GMT -5
Do I need to get my damn beatin' stick "I'm John Laurens in the place to be!" OOC~
Yes.
Roleplay- "Lafayette!" ~Hamilton Okay Maam just fill out this simple form for what stick shall be used (there is a wide variety):Choose a material:SteelWoodPlasticSilicon rubber
Choose one to three addons:NailsFireSawbladesBroken wiresLethal or Non-Lethal treatment?Lethal Non-Lethal
Seriously though, those are awful people if they're saying things like that to you.
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Post by Salt on Oct 8, 2016 22:48:39 GMT -5
"I'm John Laurens in the place to be!" OOC~
Yes.
Roleplay- "Lafayette!" ~Hamilton Okay Maam just fill out this simple form for what stick shall be used (there is a wide variety):Choose a material:Steel WoodPlasticSilicon rubber
Choose one to three addons:NailsFireSawbladesBroken wiresLethal or Non-Lethal treatment?Lethal Non-Lethal
Seriously though, those are awful people if they're saying things like that to you. "I'm John Laurens in the place to be!" OOC~
Steel Fire Sawblades Nails Lethal
Roleplay- "Lafayette!" ~Hamilton
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Post by Sour Candy on Oct 8, 2016 22:51:53 GMT -5
I appear to be out of nails, are screws okay?
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Post by shortstop on Oct 8, 2016 22:59:04 GMT -5
"I'm John Laurens in the place to be!" OOC~
I have found people who care. You, several other forumers, my roommates. You all have put away your time to help me. I fudging helpless! Lomgest I've gone without cutting is a weeks, I use anything. My pencils, teeth, nails, my lizards claws. The only reason I'm online roght now is self harm. I know it's bad but it's either this or suicide and I came this close to succeeding in suicide once. I was 95% there! Even if I find the light in the future, no one will want to be an emos friend. The result of self-harm. Plus, I'm asexual, meaning I don't want romance.
Roleplay- "Lafayette!" ~Hamilton You aren't helpless. the fact that you're trying to do this, to stay clean is amazing. you're fighting back. this is going to be hard and difficult but you're doing something about it is so great already. <3 but please don't try to take yourself from us, please. i'm so glad you're still here to talk about it. you shouldn't feel this way, this isn't fair to you, please do not do it. please. of course people want to be your friend, and if anyone doesn't because you're emo then those people are probably judgemental and rude, not the type of people who are nice to be friends with anyway. the best people are the most accepting, they are the kindest and they don't care about the scars on your body, they care about the beauty in your heart. they will always be there for you when you need to cry and they will be there when you need to laugh. and it is okay to be asexual and not want romance! not wanting those things is perfectly normal and not something anyone should judge you for at all. if people truly love you and care about you, then they'll want you to be happy. it's gonna be okay
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Post by Northstar3213 on Oct 8, 2016 23:02:24 GMT -5
Cut the ties with those "friends" it's not doing anything to help you by staying in contact with them!
It's okay to not want romance! I've lived happily single for 21 years.
I wish I could reach through the screen and give you a hug...
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Post by 🎃❅❖.Şp໐໐kฯຟiຖ໓.❖❅🎃 on Oct 8, 2016 23:09:37 GMT -5
I don't know how people can tell someone to "go die" so easily it's honestly so confusing. But. I hope you're okay now, Bracken. Those people are messed up and you should have left them a long time ago. Depression is never something to make fun of, so shame on them for thinking that it is.
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Post by Jules Sanchez on Oct 8, 2016 23:20:34 GMT -5
Wow wow wow wow wow wow What they said was so wrong on so many different levels, I'm sorry you had to go through this. Get away from those people immediately, they're just bad people and honestly you're too good for people who are going to talk that way to and about you. There are plenty of other people in the world who are incredible and you will meet them someday. As someone who has been there, many times, all I can say is don't run. Life has so much to offer and you deserve to be here to see it all play out. You have so much potential, don't cut your story short. Especially not after those crappy people saying that too you, living your life is the best revenge. Let them see you succeed and be happy.
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Post by 🎃❅❖.Şp໐໐kฯຟiຖ໓.❖❅🎃 on Oct 8, 2016 23:24:43 GMT -5
Having a significant other isn't what would save you, Bracken. From the way it sounds, I think you might want to look into calling a suicide hotline, or seek professional help. I do NOT mean this in a bad way. But those options are there for a reason, and what you said is very worrying. I too suffered from thoughts of suicide, and have considered deeply before to go through with it. But trust me when I say it gets better. Your life isn't going to be this way forever. It won't. You've made it this far right? Why stop when you've already got this far?
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Post by feign on Oct 8, 2016 23:24:43 GMT -5
What the ----? Those so called ''friends,'' are idiots. They don't know that you're a better person than all of them, they're trash-talking you behind their backs, too scared to even come out and fight.
I'm glad your roommates are supporting you, they're real friends, and know that the forums are here for you, too! Don't let the thoughts get to your head, people are supporting you, don't give up on your happiness, okay?
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Post by feign on Oct 8, 2016 23:37:24 GMT -5
"I'm John Laurens in the place to be!" OOC~ Fireh, I don't know why, but wjen I saw your post I smiled amd hugged my phone.
I've tried suicide hotlines and whatnot but they're helpless for me. They say the same thing everytimes and it isn't helpful.
Fet, I just found out "Friend 1" has joined the forums. They're coming. My roommates are true friends. I know y'all are here for me.
Roleplay- "Lafayette!" ~Hamilton tell me their user i will use my special steel bat to beat them up for ya 👌
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Post by Sour Candy on Oct 8, 2016 23:40:58 GMT -5
"I'm John Laurens in the place to be!" OOC~ Fireh, I don't know why, but wjen I saw your post I smiled amd hugged my phone.
I've tried suicide hotlines and whatnot but they're helpless for me. They say the same thing everytimes and it isn't helpful.
Fet, I just found out "Friend 1" has joined the forums. They're coming. My roommates are true friends. I know y'all are here for me.
Roleplay- "Lafayette!" ~Hamilton I'LL FITE 'EM
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Post by feign on Oct 8, 2016 23:41:33 GMT -5
"I'm John Laurens in the place to be!" OOC~ Fireh, I don't know why, but wjen I saw your post I smiled amd hugged my phone.
I've tried suicide hotlines and whatnot but they're helpless for me. They say the same thing everytimes and it isn't helpful.
Fet, I just found out "Friend 1" has joined the forums. They're coming. My roommates are true friends. I know y'all are here for me.
Roleplay- "Lafayette!" ~Hamilton I'LL FITE 'EM tag team lets beat em up
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Post by Deleted on Oct 8, 2016 23:42:10 GMT -5
what the hell. these people are completely atrocious. god, i can't believe they would be that cruel to you. the only reason that they are doing it is so they feel better about their own pitiful little lives, and bullying such a kind and wonderful person makes them feel like they have power. salt, please don't ever think you're alone. you have so many people who care about you and love you, unlike these miserable little scum. i know i say this a lot, but if you're ever feeling depressed or you're being hurt by horrible people, don't ever hesitate to talk to me. i know i'm not a professional, but i will listen. if you are being driven to this point of depression and darkness, i would advise you to go talk to someone. your family is the first person i'd recommend, i can understand if you don't want to talk to them. you can go to your school's counsellors, as they are trained to help people, and i'm sure they have dealt with situations like this before. and you shouldn't forget about the hotlines on the top of the forums. you can always ring one of those, or other hotlines you know. there a a lot of people who you can talk to and can help you get out of this darkness. just promise that you won't hurt yourself, okay ?? salt, please take care of yourself.
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Post by Sour Candy on Oct 8, 2016 23:45:14 GMT -5
Get 'em Mad Max style
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